She says:

I don't know why, i just can't sit down and study recently. Last time i can do it. Now? Darling it's a while only and i miss you.

When i sit down and think about this relationship, i feel that i have done a lot of things that i cannot believe myself doing. Like buying fruits for you, cutting fruits for you(i'm scared of knife), asking you to quit smoking....etc. For the past relationship i don't really care. Although i asked them to quit, the fact is that i don't really bother. I don't implement measures. Like before, i impose fine on you and stuff like that. For this past 8 months plus, I've put in a lot of effort. I learn to trust. I learn to concern. I learn to love. Dar, so dar don't ever break this trust. Because once you break it; it's the end. What brought about all this thoughts? When i was at the coffee shop with my brother, i find his love life very pathetic. He keeps telling me his relationship is going to be very short. The girl is good. No doubt about that. I think the problem is with him.There's another guy who is wooing her. He's paranoid. What cause this? No trust? He had been hurt before i guess. Or else why would there be no trust? Anway, who would be so stupid to trust the person when the relationship is still so short. 8 month plus may not be long but i feel that you've got my trust already. I don't want to end up like that again. I don't like to start from square 1 again; learning how to trust again.

Lastly, i want to say this: darling i love you!
HahaZz...=p

The purpose of creating this blog is to further let me know what you're thinking, at the same time i hope to understand you more. SO I URGE YOU TO BLOG MORE OFTEN!


i love you. :: 2:13 AM